Bubblee.

halloween party and after party aka photoshoot!:P
Was Bithcing At:Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 11:34 PM

meow!:)
its been a looooooooong time i have not blog man!:)
lookbook.nu make me think of it!:P
hehe!:) so here are some pictures from my halloween part last nite!:)
my first even!:)

ian n i:)

muax muax!:P

Cleopatra!:)

and my 'photoshoot' at home!:P

Last week i went to sing along aka karaoke!:P
my first time too!:P
haha!:S im such a noob!:P

that will be all today!:)
chows!:)
love ya!:)

after a long vacation from my bloggie.
Was Bithcing At:Sunday, August 30, 2009 @ 9:08 AM

erm..how do i start?
sorry i have not updated my blog!
:S so this past few weeks was so boring..more like..lonely.
i think?
hmm..i wish my life would be like the movies.
and i feel that im not happy inside me..
u know like empty..
some ppl dont need other ppl to be happy.
but i think i need someone there by my side then i can be happy.
someone that i can tell everything inside..
hmm...someone i could be me when im around with..
someone dat would be with me thru anything..
someone that is not a malay...
truthfully speaking...i miss my ex..he was there when i needed help..
but coz of our religion...we have to break up..
it has been 5 months now...i still miss him.but i dont think i love him..
well..
tried to hook up this jangka masa..
but i guess guys are just player....refering to my previous post..i know his friend and his friend did the same thing to me..
but still make like nothing happen oni..
well...u know what they say!trick me once shame on you,trick me twice,shame on me!
why do i have to meet guys like this?
i like a guy in class..
but...we dont even talk that much..
and we dont even know anything bout each other..except for our names..

another thing...
i ALWAYS have to fake a smile when im sad..
coz..
well,when im sober,i am normally hyper active..
and when im just sad a lil..ppl will ask me,what happen?why?why?why?
its like "what?i cant be sad is it?im human oso kay!!"
hmm....

wish someone was here to hold me tight..
being single to me is really hard!
i know to other ppl is really easy and they love it!
but i think they just say single is better so that they feel better for themselves!
:(
hmm...
for me...single is hard coz i dont understand my feelings..when someone does sumthing nice to me..
i always interpret it differently..
i will instantly think that someone likes me. and i will jump to conclusions!
:(
sad life rite?
like so desperate like that..
mayb coz my ex already have a gf rite after we broke up?
i dunno..
mayb that affected me.

secondhand serenade really cure the pain!
or mayb adding to the pain!:(
anything la....i love to listen to them.

today,no one msges my phn...i feel like i dont exist!
like..no one wanna care for me to msg me even!
:(
mayb coz im not important!:)
they only call me when they need me..
i guess thats life rite?
life sucks like shit!
mayb this is why i was so emo last time!:)
i was emo u know!:P
i always wear black and all.
mayb thats the cause?
i think la.
i dunno..
i dunno anything!:)
my fav word is i dunno and mayb!

i love to read post secret!:)
so that i dont feel so sory for myself..

today's post is all about my sorrows..
all about me being sad!
so ppl,i can be sad too coz i am human!KAY!

ARGH!
Was Bithcing At:Monday, June 8, 2009 @ 8:02 AM

ARGH!!!!!!!
im soooooo fucking geram rite now!!
ok,today i was online,then my dad took the laptop from me,
then he gave it back,he said "Wah,all ur frenz in yahoo malay ah!(sarcastic/hint hint)"
I was like.."frenz oni ma.." and he showed me the yeah right face!!like WTF man!!
I ALREADY BROKE UP WIF MY FUCKING MALAY BF (which is currently ex) COZ OF THEM AND NOW HE SAY LIKE THAT!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!GERAM LIKE HELL!!!

another thing happen over the weekend!soooooooo argh!!!
ok here goes..
lets call this guy (O)..
ok so i was msging O and i asked why he din come to class dat day then he said he was at his hometown or sumthing then i said "i miss u,u know!" then he said oh,i miss you too!ill come everyday next week just to see u!:)
fel:...Aww!i love u!:)haha!:P
O :...i love u too
Fel:i love obama(thats what i call him)!
O :oh...u love obama,dun love me la?
Fel:eh,i love obama and i love you la!:)
O :oh,i love you too!:)
Fel:yay!:) now we couple!:Phaha! soo lame!

in msn pulak...

O :hey syg!:)
fel:halo!:)haha!
O :eh,wanna go out on tuesday ka?but no meaning behind it la?
fel:oh,dating ah?i wan i wan!:)
O :ok!:)cool!can i have ur pic ah?i wanna put in my phn.
fel:can!:)
(sends 1 pic)
O :eh?one oni ah?
Fel:ya la!:)why u wan 1 album of me ah?
O :can oso?:P
(send 2 or 3 pix)
O :thanks!:)eh,you like to take pix ka?
Fel:yeah!:) why?
O :you look pretty la!:)
fel(blush):aww!thanks!:)
O :i like u!:)you are so lively and funny in class!:)
fel:aww!thanks!:) but some ppl dun like me coz they say i am loud!:(
O :nvm!if they cant accept u,i do!:)
fel:aww!so sweet la!:)
O : u like me ka?
feL:yeah!your so funny and hensem!haha!:P
O : i where got hensem?
fel:got la!:)eh,ur at home kan?where ah?
O :Banting!:)
Fel:owh,got waterfall there ah? ooo i like the beach too!:)
O :got beach!:) next time ucome home with me la?i bring you to the beach,the romantic spot there!:)
Fel:oh,ok!:)

(after awhile,he intro me to his friend (F))

F :hey!:)
fel:halo!:)
O :F this is felicia!:)
fel:halo F!:)

(they talk about both of them are hensem and the Romeo in school last time..)

F :eh,fel do u have an gf dat u can intro to me ah?
fel:got!nahi give u her number!XXX-XXX XXXX
F :oh!thanks!:) u have her email or not?
fel:have!!nah!xxxxxx_xx@hotmail.com
F :owh!thanks!:)
fel:u owe me big time man!!
F :what you want in return?
fel:i wan...An IPHONE!:)
O :oh,die la you!
f :aiyak,cannot la!why dont i ask O to love you?
fel:oh,no need,he love me oredi!:)kan kan?
O : yeah syg!
fel:hehe!:P

(F left the conversation and left O and fel)

Fel:meow!:Phaha!
O :hehe!eh,if our relationship dont work out we become frenz yeah?
Fel(blur):eh,we are together oredi ah?O.O
O :just kidding la!We are frenz la!:P
fel:oh..imso blur!!:P
O :yeah!ala!We will ALWAYS be frenz la!:)frenz is better!:)
Fel (sadly typed):yala!:)

(sleep sadly listening to Taylor Swift - Teardrops On My Guitar)

Monday aka today.

Was stupidly excited to go to class..and my earphone one side rosak oredi!
then when i went to class,he was weirdly attentive to me..but not soo la..
just more than before..but a lil more oni.
then he came next to me and quietly said
O :hey,i cant go out 2moro la..
fel:oh..ok..( i knew this shit is coming!)
O :im going back to banting coz my hostel is haunted
feL:oh ok...(stupid alasan!!)
O :haunted wo...ur not scared meh?
fel:ok oni..
O :why you look so down?
fel:(u guess?!bitch!)......
(O walks away..)

(fel walkes out of class,he was there )
O :eh,why are u so under the weather?
fel:its so hot!*thinks again*(why did i just say that?!)

During Business Studies..
(0 was joking around,fel looks back)
O :ngooooorr!!(thats what he call me..)
fel:yeah?
O :(moving his lips)I love you baby
fel:*giggles in confusion coz didnt really understand what O just said*
(fel looks infront)

GOing back time
(fel was walking down,O was standing at the steps)
O :bye Bah!
fel:ah?owh me!sorry!bye!
(fel talks to gorgon!then walked back to LRT station wif frens!:))

well,that is what happened!:) more like..how i remember it happen!
so...yeah quite fucked up la!
I LIKE HIM LA KAY!!
NAH I SAID IT!!
argh!!
my sis says i should not like him coz his not christian!
i was like..oh..ok...